everyone thinks the talent is something your born with but it is something you learn and development as time passes. especially with singing everyone thinks your born with a good or bad voice and you can’t change that but that is completely wrong you are born with a pitch if you have a higher pitch when you singing then that’s something for born with but to get a good singing voice you need to practice everyday and to developed. and art you can but born and know immediately what and how to draw a mandala or even fashion your not born and you suddenly know that this necklace fits this fashion is more like testing and seeing if you like it I don’t know much about fashion I am littlery fine with going to the red carpet in jeans and a tank top with purple convers


how to gain confidence

now this is something that I have non of but I am working on it and these tips help…OK so let’s start:
1. think of confidence as a muscle you need to work out a lot to keep a muscle in shape well same goes for confidence
2. do something out of your comfort zone everyday
3. start saying hi to your crush
4. answer more questions in the class
5. do more public speaking
6. volunteer to read in class

been a while

its been a while since I posted but its because I have been doing lots of activities just to stay away from home. and also they are fun cause they have to do with music and stuff but it really is fun I have meant some weird but awsome people. but there still are some people who hate me and things with my parents and how they don’t support things that I love is just getting worse and worse and school is getting tougher. but I will try my best to continue writing posts


music might not be a passion for everyone but everyone I know listens to music and its my passion I really wish in the future that I would have a music career and I will do as much I can to reach there although my parents don’t support I will still try and its my life not their so its my life its my choose and I am the only one who can choose what to do and I feel like I can’t do what I want with out hurting someone and I think people should focus on their individual self and as they go on with that they should help others cause so many people have to go throw something really hard…
I just wish people can just grow up without having to recover from their childhood…

new year goals

I have not been post resently I have just been busy with school stuff, but anyways let’s start.
            NEW YEAR GOALS
1. sing on stage
2. get a pet
3. work hard in math/ 2nd language
4. post more blogs
5. stop posting depressing ones
6. try to get rid of your on and off depression and anxiety
7. start a YouTube channel
8. never do that thing that makes you sad but can’t talk about it in public
9. sing more in public
10. learn the guitar
11.learn the harmonica
12. get a new instrument
13. do the read 50 books in one year challenge
14. practice everyday by singing at least one song everyday
15. go to my best friend’s birthday this year
16. do more musical stuff

thanks for reading…


I got myself trapped in my head for so long I feel depressed… I guess. I have reached to a point where I want to runaway. Can’t wait til I am 18 to do that at least that’s what I want cause me moving out… yah my parents will take it hard so I might need to make like 3 thousands speeches and diagrams explaining everything.

I have difficult parents, more like really really really over protective. I am not even allowed to go to a friends birthday party almost lost a friend cause of that(even though I hardly have friends (don’t judge me)). My friends don’t understand that my parents aren’t like theirs. And my parents don’t relies that it is safe at someone I’ve known for about seven years.
But I am not one who cares about party’s and stuff like that the thing I am mad at is that I wish I was normal had a normal family and had normal wish or achievable goals… but I will the whole me and music thing will go on, just need to be patient and take things step by step.

Give up?

I ask that question to myself all the “should I give up?” About what you might ask for me it is singing a singing career. What about you why do you ask yourself if you should give I mean you spent all that time trying to reach your what you want. Don’t give up everytime that question pops up in your mind just remind yourself why you started.

Don’t give up if it’s your passion then it’s meant for you. I probably live for singing after singing even just in glee club in my school I feel so happy even though it’s not on stage or with backup dancers and stuff. Could you imagine if I get so happy about the small things how will I feel about the big things.

Don’t give up? Forget the people who don’t support if the person is family well you need to accept that fact they will get mad but just they wait til you make it to the top and they will ask you how did you do it. My family don’t want me to sing, sorry to say this but I don’t care it’s my passion and no one is allowed to tell me what to do if it is a huge part of my life. “Career” such a small word but defines your whole life it’s what makes it what it’s is or what it will be. Imagine if what your living now is the exact life you will have in ten years are you still happy cause I will give anything ANYTHING to Change it to change it for the better.

I feel like giving up. I have thousands of annoying voices in my mind that tell me I won’t do it I won’t make I am just a mess up that will never succeed, but one voice one voice that speaks in a whisper that tells me to keep going not to give up if anyone has a shoot on making why don’t I why not me if every one else can why can’t I.


So many people judge about so many things but I want to talk about music in this post… I love music I say that probably in every post I ever made its true though…

I listen to different music then the people in my school everyone like all those pop music and all that and I am just here in a corner listening to rock, contry music and those stuff the less in courage music I guess. People litterly come up to me and tell me how they except me to be listening to ABC songs and baby songs but they say it in a mean and more judging way.

I feel really different from the people in music to the point where I am insecure. I mean I am different from the way I talk, walk, dress, the music I listen to, the fact I have no interest in make up, I don’t care about boys (even though the age I am in is like “boys,boys,boys…”), to the movies I see, and the books I read. And I bet there are more stuff I can still think of more but we will be here till the next Christmas arrives.

They might laugh at us cause were different but being all the same is way funnier.


I have been bullied I’d be telling a lie if I said it stopped cause mine keeps going less then before but still effects me but let me start now with what I have to say about bullying.

Bullying is stupid and never should be done I have never had a specific bully random people approach me and well they say things and I just stand there not knowing what to do people say how stupid how boring and lifeless I am. I mean I am 12 but I don’t care about the same things everyone else cares about I like books they like movies the majority of my class get straight A’s and I am more of a D, C type of girl (don’t judge me i bet you got that mark at least once in your life). People make fun of the fact I write songs/poems that aren’t published but one day they will, at least I hope they will.

Being bullied is awful. Normally I like to give advise after talking about something that means a lot to me but I don’t have any advise to give but if you have leave a comment and help me and whoever else that might read this.

Mean class

So today was ummm…. strange, awful and the only thing that made it able to  live through was music. If you recall my first post said I love singing (more like live cause of music).
So a couple of people from my school got me all insecure about how I act since I am 12 though I am wiser then the rest of my class yet I act like I am 3 with a mind of a 40 year old brain in a 12 year old body. So all my class decided to ignore the teacher to get him pissed off because of us all my class said yes and I think they just assumed I would agree. Then the lesson started everyone did what they said they except  me and the girl next to me she is really smart and enjoyed English so we were against it, but then the teacher got so mad and gave the whole class detention and just so you know the last time my class did that our teacher cried she litterly cried no one felt bad but I felt so bad keep in mind I never did anything  but I never stopped it either my biggest mistake. That day people told “I was boring” “lame” (just cause I didn’t help them ruin a teachers day(do you hear the stupidity of that))
So if you ever feel alone trying to do the right thing go for it be the one who knocks sense in all of those idiots brains.
                    Koala lover…